do things really need to be complicated? do they truly need to be? i’m going with a negative on that one, and that we just make them that way. silly us. life’s too short. just kick back and have some fun. let things go… do not over think or make something trivial to be monstrous. letting go has to be one of the best feelings in the world. knowing you have released something, lifted a huge weight off of your shoulders. it is truly uplifting. after all, why hold onto to something if the fight doesn’t seem to be getting you anywhere? why struggle just to stay in the same place? why fight for someone if they aren’t fighting for you? there is always that hope in the back of your mind, but eventually that false hope isn’t strong enough to get up off of the ground, stand on two feet, and take another hit. eventually your body will give in. i finally gave in. i had to. i tried to burry everything for awhile. just dig deep and cover it all up like it wasn’t there and didn’t matter. but it does. they will always have a piece of my heart, but i have to let go. it has become unhealthy to linger any longer, and i need to move on. my heart cannot bear any more. maybe another time, place and circumstance… people are people and sometimes it doesn’t work out. i can’t breathe without you, but i have to. it’s not easy, but i have to. i’ve shed too many tears on too many sleepless nights. i need you like a heartbeat, but it’s killing me. i don’t want to hurt anymore. i need healing, not pain. it’s time to start healing… i’ll always be here if you should need, but i can’t hang on anymore. i never knew i could feel this much. you’re one of the best things to ever happen to me, please always know that. let the healing begin…
i found the quote i was looking for while writing this:
After all, how many ways can one heart be mangled and still be expected to keep breathing? – Bella in New Moon by Stephanie Meyer
1 Comment
January 9, 2009 at 7:29 pm
Hang in there, Lauren. You said it, let the healing begin. <3 you!