not used to this…

not used to this treatment… not sure how to take it.

it’s a different kind that i am used to and it’s taking some adjusting.

i have more thoughts, but i’ll keep them in for now.

back to basics

title says it all…

taking it back to basics. need to spend more time in the Word every day. need to pray more often. my spirits need to be lifted, and right now, only the Holy Spirit can do that. and clearly i have no self control and need some assistance improving the quality of my life. also, i am quite hung up on Hello Hurricane by Switchfoot right now…

“i’ll sing until my heart caves in. no you haven’t lost me yet.”

“these days pass me by, i dream with open eyes.
nightmares haunt my days, visions blur my nights.”

“hallelujah every breath is a second chance.” – Jon Foreman

bend and break

why am i bending the rules? you’ve already had three strikes, well more actually, and yet for some reason i haven’t ousted you. they are important strikes too… things i do not settle on. i suppose that says something, about me, and where i’m at right now. kind of pathetic. suppose it is time for mystery to enter the dynamics…

i shouldn’t settle. i am better than that.

Amy Stroup – Chin Up

http://bit.ly/6vWo9f

i got a secret, i gota tell you.
we’re gona make it,
just let me show you how.
calm down.
little reminder, everything’s fine yea.
why the sad look, love?
you look better smiling, oh.
so listen good.
i got a feelin, what you need is…

chin up boy, chin up boy yea
you are the one i love, the one.
chin up boy, chin up boy yea
you are the one i love, the one.
so live a little, let go, oh oh, oh oh oh.

don’t listen to them,
get in your head and stay.
everything you don’t need to hear about,
push ‘em out.
you feeling down now?
you know i can tell cuz,
you’re off in your own world,
picturing something blue.
i’m missing you.
i got a feelin, what you need is…

chin up boy, chin up boy yea
you are the one i love, the one.
chin up boy, chin up boy yea
you are the one i love, the one.
so live a little, let go, oh oh.

just take this kiss,
forget about the rest of it,
…. in time.
it’s gona be fine.

oh oh, oh oh……

chin up boy, chin up boy yea
you are the one i love, the one.

happiness is a choice

sometimes i forget that….

it’s been my motto for ages now, and sometimes i forget that happiness truly is a choice. it is my choice to be angry, or upset, or emotional about something. and it is also my choice to be happy.

life is too short to be sad or angry about anything or at anyone. it’s just not worth it. though it may be difficult at times, happy is the only way to be. negativity isn’t worth the stress.

someone i respect recently said to me, “stress makes you old, fast. no need to be negative, life’s over soon enough.”

why focus on negative things when there is so much to be happy about?

i choose happiness and joy <3

i don’t get it anymore…

is there something wrong with me?

there must be.

void of all meaning

i wish more people *actually* cared…

there’s a white flag waving where my heart is on the ground…

i changed my mind. no post. i’m a selfish, self-centered human being that is lonely and desperate for meaning.

time to take a step back and re-evaluate life.

that’s all.

i was thinking, over thinking

i think i’ll blog more so that i bother other people less…

expect another entry later today.

unavoidable attachment?

why do our hearts often attach to and desire things that it should not? do we let it? it is unavoidable? i feel like if there is an attraction and chemistry there, it’s almost impossible to avoid and deny the attraction. but then, why would we be attracted to things that we should not? something we know is not good for our hearts, yet we long for it. that desire is so deep that it is near impossible to suppress. the point was, we often cling to things that we should not. use your brain and figure why i bothered typing this.